This, this mess in my life

This is why I must advocate for embracing and supporting the full range of existing neurodiversity because the people at the far ends feel so left out, so abandoned, so misunderstood that a bit of kindness and understanding from me has led to years and years of …. whatever exactly this is.

And I too, I cause lots of upheaval. This works both ways. Because I do not know what kind of “world” I am dealing with so I too undoubtedly cause lots of confusion because I say things from my perspective, not from theirs.

(I am not a full-blown empath, but I seem to “get” some things that not everyone gets. Beside the point. This is not about me.)

There is a very different kind of logic at work here – in whatever this is – that is just as logical to the people who apply that as “our” kind of logic is for neurotypical people.

It’s BIRDS that have made me aware of the fact that there is more than just one kind of logic. They too apply logic. (Birds, I mean.) This is because a lot of what we consider “logic” actually builds on existing knowledge. Without that knowledge, very different conclusions can be just as logical.

More in a minute.

All of this, it drains a huge amount of energy from me. Keep in mind that I NEVER talk with who exactly this is, who is messing with my life. So my mind sometimes goes into overdrive trying to figure this out, not to mention “fixing” the various messes. (And knowing that I often sound like a complete lunatic while I am trying to fix the various messes, lol. That’s okay. Doesn’t matter. Well, rarely.)

And I probably pick up on the energy of the person who threw that total hissyfit on my computers and printer the other day upon learning that I was having a different lock installed. He or they must be in a lot of turmoil.

If only we could sit down and have tea or coffee. And have some kind of intermediary present because let’s face it…. I am not sure what exactly it is that I am dealing with. Let alone who…

We need more safe spaces for the people on the far ends of neurodiversity. The only safe spaces they know, I presume, are their homes?

(I know that the lockdowns have created extra challenges for autistic people because they rely so heavily on routines.)

I’ll follow this up with some videos.

We need to foster greater understanding for the full range of neurodiversity. And acceptance. At the moment, society mostly… rejects, right? That alone must be the cause of so many problems.


Smart meters and hackers

I searched and this came up:

“Hacked meters can even cause house fires and explosions or even a widespread blackout. Unlike remote servers, smart meters can be relatively easily accessed by attackers, so each smart meter must be quite hackproof and resilient in the field.”

Security angles are hardly ever addressed with persistent targeting in mind. The same goes for locks on doors. But there is more beyond random brute force factors. 

Who is “Clair Stevens”?

So I e-mailed her again – with copies to others to cover my ass – as I didn’t hear back from her. (Interestingly, those cc addresses disappeared from my screen at some point and I had to enter them again.)

She replied that she had not heard back from me. This is what happened. See below. Most recent message at the top.

Dear Clair,

Thank you for your response. I have no choice but to conclude that you are not who you say you are.

I do not appreciate this.

Please do NOT contact me again.

Over and out.


Hi Angelina Sorry i do not have a business card but i have an ID badge, when I get to meet you face to face you will be able to see this. As you can see my email is Portsmouth city council which hopefully will give you some reassurance. i look forward to speaking with you at 4pm 

Hello Clair,

I did e-mail back to you. Perhaps your e-mail system weeded it out as a potential spoof.

Could you please send me a copy of your business card and your passport or perhaps, instead of your passport, a few business cards of your colleagues? 

Like I said, you do not seem to exist digitally, spoofs abound these days and because of the pandemic, I have no way of verifying that you are who you say you are. You could be a so-called flying monkey. 

I trust that you understand.


After that, a 4pm call would be fine.




Hi Angelina, I hope you are well? I did email you on Tuesday asking if you were available to talk yesterday between 9 – 11, as i did not hear from you I was going to contact you again today. Would you be free on chat later today around 4pm?


Hello Clair,

I suppose that you have another emergency on your hands as I didn’t hear back from you.

Could you please do me a favour and e-mail me a scan of your business card? I would really appreciate that. You see, you do not seem to exist at all in the digital realm and in today’s day and age, that is rather odd. And I have had so many spoofed e-mails, texts, phone calls and other communications in the past decade, even a communication about a non-existing court order.

Thank you.

So, what happened this morning?

I received a text message saying “test” that I sent to myself, to test if that 2FA phone was working properly… But I sent that message weeks ago! That is the phone on which I am no longer getting my bank’s 2FA codes.

I have not heard back from the locksmith yet, but that’s okay, nothing unusual about that.

I have not heard back from Clair Stevens yet. She wanted to talk with me yesterday morning but the timing was not convenient. That too does not seem unusual. She seems to have lots of emergencies to tackle.

Yesterday, I also shot off a brief e-mail to my landlord. I have no idea whether he has received it. When someone else is grabbing all your texts and e-mails… that is kinda hard to tell right now, with so many places closed and no way of verifying many things IRL (face to face) anywhere.

One of my own challenges with assessing various situations is that I have gotten to know England as a pretty disorganised mess, overall, and not getting responses to communications is “the usual”. Getting a response is the exception, not the norm, in England, in my experience. Now add a pandemic and a lengthy lockdown to that…

I’ve also just found that I’ve been logged out of one site where I was logged in. This happens a lot. The times I get told that my password is invalid, well, I’ve lost count…

Oh, and I really need more exercise!