Ouch! (moulds)

I just discovered lots of moulds on one window. Only one window pane.

I quickly identified the source of the moulds (washer’s drain tube) and – thereby – the source of my recent excessive mucus production and annoying cough as well, I am sure.

(It also explains why I had started to look a bit washed out. Pale. It goes with allergies. Hay fever used to do that to me too, back in Amsterdam. Did you know that looking pale can also lead to otherisation? Because people subconsciously associate it with someone not being very healthy. Ancient biological mechanisms kick in. Yes, there’s been research into this.)

Consider the moulds tackled!

Also… I have an AirFree air purifier that is great for moulds and dust mites and other allergens, but I had not been using it for a while. Another lesson learned. (Keep the thing on!)

Next morning: Holy cow! My horrible cough is gone, the thick mucus is gone, the clogged sinuses are no longer clogged and I have a LOT more energy. Yep, that’s allergies for ya! Just a little bit of mould and things go haywire. Allergies affect my muscles, too. And many people’s moods as well.

Oh yeah

So I am editing categories, reorganising this site, and all of a sudden, my browser resolution blows up, forcing me to decrease the browser view from 100% because stuff won’t fit onto my screen.

Yep, that too has happened many times before. Yep, I think it’s another hacker thing, some kind of message along the lines of “see the bigger picture”. As seen through whose eyes? My views are as valid as anyone else’s. And vice versa.

But maybe I am lucky and it will turn out to be a mere technology hiccup.

Ten minutes later: Ha ha, there is definitely a poltergeist in my PC right now. I am adding links and finding the content of those links changed (the bits of text that they embrace).

Change of tack

On the one hand, I want to document the weirdness that is going on in my life so that there may be people “out there” who know that this is going on and, also, to protect myself against any potential negative side effects on my life of other people’s neurodiversity.

By the latter, I mean that while I accept people with NPD and do not blame them for having NPD, I also know – have learned – that having NPD can make a person feel very vulnerable and also very vengeful.

Locally, I have been through a large number of increasingly high-impact “set-up days”. Abroad, I know someone else who’s admitted to “always scheming”.

On the other hand, I don’t want to whine and whine and whine and whine and worry and worry. I want my life back – or at least have A life again (and that statement is totally unrelated to the lockdowns) and whining and whining and worrying is not going to accomplish that.

So I will do both. I don’t want to be dismissed locally as “a foreign older woman who gets delusional under stress” and/or “who merely imagines that she went to university but obviously never did”.

The logical thing to do with all of this is admit and accept that I am now an inclusivity, (neuro)diversity and equality maven.

Found my phone’s bluetooth on again this morning

But my phone is cold. Yes, cold.

And yes, I am pretty sure that I am not getting all my e-mail.

Also, somehow, stuff from my eyes is making it into my throat. Via the tear ducts? I found an eyelash (!) in my mouth yesterday and traces of eyeliner in my mucus a little earlier. The latter has happened before, relatively recently.

I have pigment dispersion syndrome in both eyes and I take eye drops to combat the effects of that. I know that my eye drops can acerbate asthma and can also “cause coughs” so I press my tear ducts shut after I apply the eye drops to stop them from getting into my system.

Unfortunately, the dropper bottle is not well designed and I often end up with the stuff all over my face, so some of it gets absorbed by the skin and still gets into my system.

But I am not quite sure what to make of what is happening right now. Do my eye drops somehow widen my tear ducts? My lungs are clear. 

These eye drops also cause new eyelash growth. I have to extract eyelashes – some of them grey-white – growing inside the corner of my eye from time to time as they can cause irritation. Do I have eye lashes growing inside of me, ha ha?

The various issues with my eye drops are the reason why I want an assessment of whether I’d be a good candidate for surgery – when the pandemic eases. 

Update 17 February 2021: I think that the “eyelash” was a plucked eyebrow hair that made it into my coffee or food. That solves that mystery!