Anyone in Portsmouth – or anywhere else – who believes that harassing a woman like this – watch till the end, please – is hilarious urgently needs to see a shrink

This is mostly for the people who are not part of the local hate groups but are merely extremely insular, always gossiping and jumping to hateful conclusions about strangers.

This is what your habit of otherisation does.

When people essentially declare other people non-humans, because they’re seen as people who don’t have the same right to live their lives. They are “not one of us, but one of them”. They are not seen as having the same needs, rights and wishes as them but as free to be messed with relentlessly.

If you think that this only happens in the United States, think again. It happens all over the world..

The people like Layla who are affected like this become otherised even more of because what it does to them. They are the ones who are being told to seek help for their temper or their personality disorder or what have you.

It’s the people who otherise them who need help… Those are the ones who have lost their equilibrium and are no longer acting in healthy balanced manner, who declare people like Layla – who had absolutely nothing to do with 9-11 and who was a nurse for crying out loud – prey.

Excessive otherisation is at the root of the tragedies that happened that caused this poor woman to be harassed this way. (Ask terrorism experts.) The west is arrogant and has a habit of treating people from other parts of the world like shit. There is only so much shit people can take.

And sometimes, otherisation can get very badly out of control as we’ve also seen happen with Nazi Germany.

The 9-11 attacks and the genocide that happened during WWII and similar targeting that is still happening all over the world today (Russian killing Ukrainians, China targeting Uyghurs, Canadians, Americans and Australians still often targeting their countries’ native populations, people like Keir Starmer suggesting that BLM is just a short-lived American fad that has no relevance in the UK and the UK refusing to return the Chagos Islands to the Chagossians, these things are all related, aren’t they?

Otherisation begets otherisation begets otherisation begets discrimination, distrust, stigmatisation, hate, cruelty, violence and ultimately genocide.

Is this cycle hard to break? Hell, yeah. Is that a reason for giving up? Hell, no.

And yes, this is more or less what being based in Portsmouth is like for me. This is what it feels like, the way Layla sweeps all her messages across the hospital floor and the way she walks out of the bank. These angry outbursts don’t mean that she is “autistic” or “schizophrenic”. Wanting to stay away from utterly nonsensical abuse – by avoiding people – does not mean that a person is “autistic” or “schizophrenic” or “learning-disabled” either.

Everyone thinks they know exactly who she is, on the basis of assumptions and gossip and harmful stereotyping. This is exactly how it works, how “regular” Portsmouth works.

You all think you know me and have the right to abuse me endlessly. But none of you know me. Not one person in this town knows me! Not a single one!

The way Layla was treated may make you feel like a hunted deer at first – scared and unsafe and always on the run and having to watch your back, always needing to brace yourself for what is around the corner – but it also makes you feel like a lion or elephant that is being shot at – angry and hurt and annoyed and irritated.

And perhaps you even end up wanting to do something about this, somehow get people to get along with other people better. But then again, is that really the responsibility of the Laylas in the world? Shouldn’t people like Layla and me merely be allowed to live our lives?

If you talk about this stuff, you get targeted but if you keep quiet, you get targeted too. There are no safe places left after a while, no places where you can relax. That’s not good.

Ha ha

How COLD this phone is when people aren’t fucking around in it! I have gotten so used to it being warm all the time and often being really hot.

(But make no mistake, these hate-fuelled and hate-spewing 4chan and 8chan creeps aren’t gone yet. They also operate IRL and there was overnight crap.)

Also… turns out that some of my incoming calls were being forwarded to an unknown 078 number.

Toxic communities


I don’t have a nasty stalker but am surrounded – both in real life and in a digital sense – by on the one hand miserable people who are guided by blind hate and on the other hand people who are too gullible and believe everything that they are told or that they hear and only a handful of people to whom this doesn’t apply.

I don’t know any of the latter personally, but I do know that it includes a young woman who works at the navy, locally.

Okay, also a large group of people who don’t know what to make of it all. Of course!

What can I do with that?

The hate that the first group is driven by (to vilify and abuse and even sabotage me) reveals their personal insecurities. I can’t fix that. But maybe I can overcome it or go around it.

The geographical constraints of the tiny island that I am on limit me greatly.

I’ve been having bad headaches and yawning a lot for a few days and I am not going to rush into anything.

But I am done with being abused. These anonymous people who hate me, they will literally have to kill me in order to make me succumb to their hate. Maybe they can place bets on that this time, instead of on whether I will commit suicide. 🤪

Frankly, I am flabbergasted by the hate. Until a few days ago, I hadn’t even realised how much blind hate is behind my abuse. Nor had I realised how much of it is about age, not just about me being female and foreign and a feminist.

It’s certainly got nothing to do with someone out there perhaps being autistic. This isn’t humourous either, not in the slightest. This is mostly regular narrow-minded anonymous folks who let hate dictate everything that they do and who have zero respect for their fellow human beings.

They literally seem to think that everyone over 45 is brain-dead 😂 (and is better off dead?).

Cutting or restricting my internet access – or hiding all the UNIX books or going into my flat to steal my car club card or my bankcard so that I have to go to the bank instead of going to Southampton that day or blocking income opportunities or spreading these stupid rumours about me – doesn’t make me brain-dead either, folks. You can try from here till eternity. It’s not going to work.

Making water companies comply with discharge regulations

That’s only going to work if an independent regulator is willing and ready to step in and take over, for example by appointing other companies. Maybe like what happens when a company goes into administration. The monopoly that the water companies have means that they can afford to ignore regulations and just pay the fines. They have a lot of power because they know that nobody is going to shut them down.

You see something similar with the UK government. It considers itself not bound by legislation and above the courts.