As someone who recently became the target of three people (and relentless abuse from their entourage) who are more or less like this and (because I was stuck in that little enclave where it came from and which also enabled it all in the first place) hence had to start studying and contemplating what it may be like to be like this, and realized that diversity is much greater and more multifaceted than we tend to be aware of, I recognize many things in this interview. It surprised me, I should add, and it’s also reassuring because it makes me realize that my assessments tend to be right. (It’s part of why you get targeted. You understand.)
It also makes me feel very weary (exhausted) as well as wary. These people have a tendency to gobble you up, consume you. Everything is a game to them, on some level. It’s like they are in a James Bond film. They’re relentless. Or, can be.
Yes, the amount of chaos that they can add to other people’s lives is huge. When you interact with people like him, you also have to really watch yourself to make sure you are not becoming callous and manipulative yourself but remain true to yourself. It’s probably a sliding scale, a slippery slope. They can affect you before you know it.
Me, I’m done with it. I’m out of energy, out of life, now. I mean, kerrist, I would like to be able to support myself again, for starters, but when I do, it becomes so much more difficult to manipulate me, for example because then I can do things like purchase new computers and possibly finally be hacking-free again. The amount of manipulation I’ve been subjected to since 9 June 2008 has been staggering and sometimes pretty extreme (sometimes intended to manipulate other people with regard to me in order to be able to manipulate me but also sometimes intended to see if I could for example be manipulated into suicide). The cost has been tremendous. It can get really complicated.
For anyone who wonders, I’m a little under the weather. Probably fighting off a virus. Something like that. Am taking it easy for a few days. Kicked in yesterday or day before.
After the above, which had been on my watch later list for a long time, I ran into this one…
I’m starting to get the sense that addressing the focusing illusion could be the solution to so much. I only heard about it, read about it, a week ago. I need to start reading up on it and explore it in myself as well to get a better feel for what it is. Is it tied to the altruism – psychopathy variation, for example? No idea. I don’t think that I do it much myself, but I probably won’t even know until I read up. I need to read up. It may not bring me any answers at all. It may be a disappointment. We’ll see.
