Update 3 July 2024, 09:25: I am keeping this online to protect myself. I’ve now also realized why Jeroen V. – who I think is a decent guy – was behaving so bizarrely. I am pretty sure that he had been fed a load of nonsense about me, the poor guy. (His attitude, too, made me back out.) I was about to forward him an email that I sent to someone else this morning, but I won’t. There are two rotten apples in that particular bunch; the others are likely okay. Those two rotten apples are really mean-spirited, however, and they make me very reluctant to interact with any of them or their colleagues. I’ve spent too much time in Portsmouth to know that one or two people can make your life a living hell for years because the others don’t know you and are likely to take what they are told at face-value.
I want out of here asap. (Are all small towns like this? I am used to much larger towns, where most people let each other LIVE and don’t obsess over strangers.)
But my main problem remains my hacker(s). I can’t do much of anything until that is finally resolved for good; whoever this is is insanely persistent (and pretty destructive). He really enjoys thwarting my efforts, but it’s always a game of positive and negative.
For now, I have to keep focusing on generating new income, hacker(s) or no hacker(s).
He always hits out unexpectedly, also sometimes when you think that he’s finally left you in peace. Anything to pester and sabotage me. Why? I dunno. It is just the way he is. Why me? I dunno. It always has me on edge because I never know what stunt he will pull next, or IF he will pull one or not. There’s always the “nah nah nah nah nah”.
(Such as what happened at the end of 2019 and start of 2020, with payments from my oldest client going astray over 6 months. Then he started taunting me with it. And finding contact details changed in all sorts of places such as HMRC VAT and even getting a spoofed call from that client with the voice of an old friend who had just passed away and other “messages” from her and so on. The call made no sense but I was busy at the time and only gave a quick response. When I tried to call back, I couldn’t. I tried a few times.)
(People’s responses to me talking about this and asking for help almost always boil down to “women don’t know how to handle technology” or a version thereof. So I no longer talk about it. There is nowhere you can go to get help with something like this. I now know that you need to disappear to resolve a situation as crazy as this – which the Dutch police used to advise too, in the past; I know someone who had to do that – but you can’t do that without having enough cash (and/or family support) to do that. Having the cooperation from someone with a holiday hide-out somewhere – anywhere – could be very helpful too. But people don’t help. They pull away because it is all far too crazy for words, what’s been going on in my life for… wait for it… 16+ years now.)
(I’ve also dealt with years of abuse as the result of trying to explain what was going on. Stupid migrant does not know how to handle technology, and what not, it got stale, so stale. And it imposes an immense stress load because of how powerless it makes you feel. Nobody HELPS. Almost everyone simply becomes ABUSIVE when you ask for help. It’s a bit like the situation with that woman whose emaciated body was found in a closet in England a while back. Everybody around her SAW what was happening. They must have sought any excuse they could find not to help her. After she’d been beaten to death, and her body was stuffed in a closet, it was too late to help her.)
ANYONE WHO DOES NOT UNDERSTAND THAT I PREFER TO STAY FOCUSED ON THE MAIN ISSUES INSTEAD OF DEALING WITH PETTY GAMES PLAYED BY PEOPLE WHO APPARENTLY HAVE NOTHING BETTER TO DO WITH THEIR TIME, WELL, THAT’S YOUR PROBLEM.
(I so wish I could get my pre-hacker life back. The hacking causes so much conflict and tension in my life. People can’t figure out wtf is going on and some wonder why I am always so tense and look so desperate these days. I want my normal life back.)
Am currently working on the subtitles for my latest course. He forced me to do them in a different manner but this step is actually really beneficial. Except… it is costing me a lot more time as I have to re-render the videos and why didn’t he simply let me know about this earlier? Why the hocus pocus, the secrecy? All I am finding is that my captions aren’t being generated. They should be. It’s automatic. So then I start looking into it and he may start popping up helpful links, like when he gave me the link to an article about Murphy’s right hand legal advisor who’d been to prison for three years and was kicked out of the profession.
When he “helps me”, he (then) usually (also) does something else that does a lot of damage or that makes all that work for nothing. Not always.
UPDATE 14:32(and 17:17): It’s revenge, indeed, that I am dealing with locally, plain and simple.
I called someone out on her unprofessional clumsy behavior last year – because I was baffled by what the heck she was doing and offended as well as she was violating my rights without a word of explanation – and she took revenge. That was the impression I had at the time. That impression was confirmed just now.
Dutch legal aid had advised me to call a number for assistance, asap, and I did so, and I ended up talking with the very person who according to the people mentioned in Dutch below set all of this sordid mess in motion – which she now denies.
Turns out that she considers herself a world-class forensic psychologist and IT-specialist and she is furious that I still won’t acknowledge that and instead now think of her as a total “huppelkutje”. Actually, I’ve now dismissed her as totally immaterial, of course. I initially gave her the benefit of the doubt as she was a brand-new employee and simply seemed to have no clue what she was doing. She still has no clue what she is doing but she is a mean-spirited and vengeful person with clear sadistic tendencies and no capacity for empathy. Classic narcissistic personality.
Here is the thing that concerns me. I am not in a wheelchair and I am educated and I do not have dementia and I am not frail. If she is this horrible with me, how on earth does she treat people who she perceives as even much more vulnerable than me (who she seems to see as a mere speck of dirt on her windshield)?
I can afford to hang up on her. What about the people who can’t?
This to assuage all the fears of non-feminist men that I go exclusively after them. (I don’t “go after” people. I hold up a huge STOP sign. That’s all. Unless someone is going after lots of other people, because then I may alert, say, authorities or lobbying organizations, such as, say, for the over-55s, in this particular case.)
Over the phone she was playing despicable silly games and seemed to relish what she saw as my powerlessness.
The person who I filed the police report about is her superior.
(Another silly “huppelkutje”? Yes, I think so. There are many wonderful people in the world but some aren’t and have no excuses.)
Last year, but I don’t know when exactly, she let me know things like “if you can’t count because for example you have dementia, we can help you count”. That is all they do there, they said. They can make phone calls and send emails for people who don’t know how to make phone calls and send emails. That kind of stuff.
My initial feeling when things suddenly escalated was that I was dealing with revenge. Good to know that I was spot on. That’s highly reassuring.
The way the Dutch system works, local civil servants have immense power over the poor and over older people and people with disabilities and so on. That is not the case in England, where you can simply move to another town, for example, and retain the same rights.
If you flee from domestic violence, for example, you can’t flee to another town, in the Netherlands. You have to remain stuck in the town in which you were already stuck, no matter how small the town is. At least, those were the rules the last time I checked; some things have changed in the past 2 to 3 years.
As I was right about this, however, then I am very likely also right about the other thing that has puzzled me. You have to live in society’s underbelly to find out what really goes on. That was the case in Portsmouth and it is clearly also the case here. I’ve never lived in this country’s underbelly before.
(That is, about the person who seems to be behind this, however.)
I’d also filed a complaint about this with the organization she works at (and I’ve talked about this with a lawyer who seemed just as flabbergasted as I am).
I can’t be sure who is doing what within this context, who is the real culprit. There are several people who keep deflecting questions and who keep playing ping-pong games (referring to each other). Why?
It still feels like it’s most likely revenge for having more or less accidentally called certain people out on their unprofessional amateurish methods, even though it was in an acceptable manner. (I didn’t realize that I instantly should have filed an official complaint; it’s not how I operate.) When I reached out to them to talk about it, as a friendly gesture, they kept closing doors instead of wanting to interact like normal grownups.
I find that worrisome.
What is happening here (the matter I am writing about below) most definitely does not add up, does not make sense, is not part of normal procedures in the Netherlands – but they claim that it is.
Many things are still not against the law in the Netherlands, but the matter below now concerns an actual threat. Was that on the basis of something I mentioned that I had seen in American news, during what was intended as a helpful conversation at my personal initiative?
I do not recognize this country. It’s made a whopping shift to the far right and to authoritarianism and polarization in society. Several people had told me something like that – sorry, Andrea, for example – but I found it hard to believe.
There’s something else. I asked three parties for data removal. Two replied that I needed to identify myself in order to get my data removed. They see no problem with violating my rights relentlessly however, and never ask for my permission to do so. They never show me their ID. The third party said “no problem, it’s done”. One of the other ones eventually let me know that it was done, but appears to have lied about that.
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Geachte mevrouw Txxxexs,
Een bekende strafrechtadvocaat gaf ooit een mooi voorbeeld van hoe je mensen verbaal klem kunt zetten. Dat was de vraag “Slaat u uw vrouw nog steeds?”.
- Als ik niet op deze mail reageer omdat ik vind dat u mij als burger van onder de paraplu van uw werkgever lastig valt en alleen overlast veroorzaakt en helemaal niets bijdraagt, dan wordt er mogelijk van onder uw paraplu gezegd dat ik niet reageer en “dus” wel dementerend zal zijn of iets van dien aard.
- Ik wil echter eigenlijk helemaal niet reageren. Ik bén namelijk geen patiënt bij u, hoe vaak u dat ook suggereert. Ik heb beroepshalve niets met u te maken en de informatie die ik tot u toe van u en uw collega’s heb gekregen over waarom u mij bent gaan lastig vallen, bleek ook niet te kloppen.
De gemeente Purmerend – waar de GGD onderdeel van uitmaakt en door wordt betaald – had mij laten weten dat mijn gegevens in dit kader waren vernietigd. Dat blijkt duidelijk niet het geval te zijn. En als dat wel het geval is, dan bent u op zeer grove wijze persoonlijk bezig met het overtreden van het strafrecht.
Ik wist niet dat de GGDs onderdeel van de gemeenten uitmaken en door hen worden betaald. Als dat wel het geval was geweest dan was ik niet op mijn eigen initiatief als burger bij u langs gekomen om te praten over dat de gemeente uw tijd verkwanselt. Ik heb één keer eerder met een GGD te maken gehad, namelijk voor inentingen in verband met mijn eerste emigratie. GGD was voor mij een begrip waar ik nog nooit eerder in detail bij had stilgestaan.
Weet u, ik had bij nog een andere instantie een zelfde verzoek om verwijdering van gegevens ingediend. (Dat heb ik gedaan op grond van informatie die onder meer in een rapport van de Nationale Ombudsman maar ook op sites van gemeenten en overkoepelende organisaties is te vinden.) Die deed daar helemaal niet moeilijk over en ging er meteen mee akkoord. Sterker nog, toen ik hen mailde omdat ik ergens informatie over wilde, werd ik heel vriendelijk door een specialist teruggemaild met de gevraagde informatie.
Ik heb u eerder gesommeerd dat u moet ophouden met mij lastig vallen. Want dat is beslist wat u doet.
Ik eis ook nog steeds dat u alle gegevens die u voor mij al dan niet buiten uw schuld om op onrechtmatige wijze hebt verkregen en al dan niet met derden hebt uitgewisseld onmiddellijk verwijdert en dat u deze eventuele derden instrueert hetzelfde te doen.
Groet,
mw drs AWMG Souren
