So the Irish servers have disappeared but I am still often listening to Malti, the language. I contacted the provider about this a while ago and also about being unable to download their app because it thinks I’m in a different country.

No response.

There have been other non-responses and one of my Dutch contacts made a mistake in an email the other day that suggested that he was using Google Translate to turn English into Dutch. He’s the only one who occasionally sends me a short mail.

(Haven’t been able to make contact with anyone, really, after I fled from Portsmouth in 2023. The explanation for half of that is simple. As soon as you can no longer be at people’s beck and call, to serve them, many will drop you like a hot potato. That’s just the way it is. Certainly Dutch people tend to forget about you anyway as soon as you move out of the country. However, I have also had faked responses – notably one text message with two clear indications that it was fake – and several people appear to have disappeared off the face of the earth. Can’t find anything about them that is more recent than 2016.)

No, this hacking nonsense sure hasn’t stopped yet and yes, it’s malicious. (Of course it is. Its very nature alone indicates that, doesn’t it.)

Also, I still sense incel sentiments underneath it every once in a while. I may be mistaken about that, but there’s always been that idea of “if I wipe out your income and render you homeless, you will have to move in with the first man who is willing to take you in”. (Biggest recipe for abuse, of course. I’m so never again doing that.)

I’m not regretting that I left the death trap with all its abuse but of course now the civic offices have not paid my remaining month of benefits yet. They withheld them without prior notification in the previous month too. The only place where you can file a complaint is the people who you are filing the complaint against. They really couldn’t care less. I was shocked to see how biased and abusive these people are. It’s scary. It’s that kind of attitude that makes it possible for stalking to go on for such a crazy amount of time as it has in my case.

I’m pretty sure that he often thinks he’s helping me. But the very deliberate isolation he imposes on me makes clear how fake that is.

He seems to have been preparing some kind of stunt again, perhaps. Dunno.

I still just want my life back.